i now have a new computer, because my old one was extremely fuckity and would sign offline every three seconds. so now there has been a comp rotation in the rollison household, and i have this.

BUTTSEX!

im going to take a littl time to talk about the awesomeness of clearlake. first of all, justing spent the entire ride up (2hrs ish) shouting GO BEACH! at random intervals. then he got us all doing it. on top of that, the most frequent topic of conversation was buttsex, god only knows why.

when we first went out on the lake, justin put a life jacket on like a diper, shouted "CLEARLAKE!!!" and jumped in, closely followed by dana who did the same thing. next was me, edging into the water from the back of the boat and right before i got in saying "uhh...clear..lake?" next was alex randall standing triumphantly at the back of the boat and, as he rocketed into the air, shouting "BUTTSEX!!!"

that was pretty much clearlake in a nutshell. that and an assload of BJ's and corn dogs ;)

i have decided that it is high time for a new post, so here goes.

i would like to start off to appologize for being such a bitch. to a few people in particular ( who i dont think read this anyway, but life goes on) but also to everyone else. i have been stressed out and upset lately, but that is no excuse. i will try to be less bitchy in future. that said...

summertime and the livin's easy...

went to a trillion grad partays yesterday, it was much fun. ben nelson laid me at the beginning of the day, and i wore it for hella long. i finally had to take it off because it looked like death and smelled about the same, but it was fun while it lasted. spent the night and justins and ate an entire pint of b and j's by myself. gross, and yet sooooo tasty.

in other news, CLEAR LAKE NEXT WEEKEND BITCHES!!!!! oh man, what a party it shall be. there is really nothing i like better than just chillin in houses by the water. im gonna bring my narnia book and sit on one of those floaties, reading and sunbathing all day. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

talkin bout man's best friend

we had to put my dog to sleep on wednesday. my mom called my cell phone after school to tell me, and i came right home. he couldnt even get up out of his bed, he hardly even noticed that i was there. and i could only be with him for 15 minutes bc i had to go to a jazz choir gig. i barely got to say goodbye...hes the first pet ive ever had that died. we had him for 7 years and two days exactly, kinda weird.

mooch, i loved you very much. you were the best dog anyone could ever ask for, even with your little quirks. i hope you have gone on to a better place. ill always remember you, there will never be another dog quite like you in the world.

my mom made a little shrine in the kitchen, a framed picture of him with some flowers around it. even my dad has been crying.  i want my dog.

NEW DAVE MATTHEWS ALBUM OUT TODAY!!!!

j, dana, katt and i went out after school and bought it. not fantastic, but not bad. and its dave, so who the fuck cares anyway? his voice = sex. then we went back to katts and sunbathed for a bit, then we busted out the cranium. epic battle: penises vs. vajayjays..... KATT AND I ARE THE VICTORIOUS VAJAYJAYS!!

i must take this time to thank jason for entering this wonderful word into my vernacular. its all i call it anymore =)

in other news, anna begins is the sweetest song ever. here are the lyrics in case you are a cultureless barbarian and have never heard this delicious peice of music before.

My friend assures me, "It's all or nothing."
I am not worried I am not overly concerned
My friend implores me, "For one time only,
make an exception." I am not worried
Wrap her up in a package of lies
Send her off to a coconut island
I am not worried I am not overly concerned with the status of my emotions
"Oh," she says, "you're changing."
But we're always changing

It does not bother me to say this isn't love
Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
And I guess I'm going to have to live with that
But I'm sure there's something in a shade of grey,
Something in between,
And I can always change my name
If that's what you mean

My friend assures me, "It's all or nothing."
But I am not really worried I am not overly concerned
You try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourself
To make yourself forget I am not worried
"If it's love," she said, "then we're going to have to think about the consequences."
She can't stop shaking I can't stop touching her and...

This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes her away and Anna begins to change her mind
"These seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days," she says
And I'm not ready for this sort of thing

But I'm not going to break and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not going to bend, and I'm not going to break and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
It seems like I should say, "As long as this is love..."
But it's not all that easy so maybe I should
Snap her up in a butterfly net Pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried I've done this sort of thing before
But then I start to think about the consequences
Because I don't get no sleep in a quiet room and...

The time when kindness falls like rain
It washes me away and Anna begins to change my mind
And everytime she sneezes I believe it's love and
Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing

She's talking in her sleep
It's keeping me awake and Anna begins to toss and turn
And every word is nonsense but I understand and
Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing

Her kindness bangs a gong
It's moving me along and Anna begins to fade away
It's chasing me away She disappears and
Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing

really read them, they are so sweet. "every time she sneezes i believe its love"... and its all so true. everything doesnt have to be "i love you", it can just be an understanding of deep emotion for one another. i really like that =)

3 kodak moments of today.....

1. got in the car with katt and lisa and realized that the bag on gummy worms that were in there had melted, then recongealed to form one giant gummy solid, with some still-formed gummy bodies inside the blob.

  b) katt and i ate some of it

2. saw a guy driving in petaluma that had one of those "my penis is huge i swear" cars (big tires, loud engine) and, upon looking down, notcied that he had a ballsack swinging from the back of it

3. saw a hauling truck with a sign on the back that said "hooter shots appreciated" with a drawing of titties underneath it.

life can be quite amusing sometimes